i'm a bitch... get used to it... people treat me like shit, i'm gonna treat them like shit right back... that's fair right? if you don't wanna be friends with me because i like to spend time with my boyfriend, then i guess you weren't truly my friend... i understand people change but i've never seen that drastic of a change before... but idk... i still wanna be friends but if you don't then i guess i'm gonna have to deal with it right? well i just got back from seeing Joseph but i think i might go back cuz he's sweet well ttyl luv yas
**~Nicole~**
I Ronnie (forever and always)

i know you all are going to think this is one of the dumbest posts ever, this is me...

do you ever wonder why God puts people in situations when we think we can't handle them... i know i'm not the person everyone thinks of when you hear the word Christian... but believe it or not, i do believe in God... and as of right now, i don't know why he put me in the situation that i'm in... i know that i can handle it, but why? that's one of the many questions that i have right now... why? why is it that one day my life is full of happiness and the next i'm upset over the dumbest things... someone is stuck between two people right now... and they don't wanna have to choose... obviously one of those people is me... i've made many mistakes in my life and i think it's time that i've paid for them... you'd think having so many terrible things happen in a little over a year is bad enough... but not for me... i know i deserve worse... i've taken for granted many things, my boyfriend, friends, family... everything... now God is punishing me... he's making me grow apart with my friends... he making me have more ups and downs with Ronnie than a married couple... and making me fight with my family... i know he doesn't really "make" anyone do anything, it's up to us... but he puts us there... and it's time that those things change for me... the one person that i love most is gonna see the biggest change in me... i feel bad for all that i've put him through... there's so many things that i can't even begin to tell... i need to talk to my friends more... although things with my family aren't that bad, they could be better... with Ronnie, there's so many things that i would do for him, just so he could be happy... i know that i get mad easily and over stupid things, but i really want to change... before i would say that i'm going to change, but i've never had the encouragement from myself to actually accomplish something... so i'm going to change... i'm going to be how i used to be... more fun, more opinionated, more happy, and just finding out who i really am.................. life's gonna get better
**~Nicole~**
I Ronnie (forever and always)